Are you so fucking bored of me? Lord, I AM. You know what I mean? Like when you wear the same shirt too often and it's in too many photos and you're just SO OVER IT. Definitely the same thing...

I figured you guys were super bored of just hearing me talk about myself, so today I included one of my closest friends and badest bitch in the game. Is "badest" even a word? Idk...it is now. She also has an Australian accent which turns me on... AMIRIGHT?

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My Relationship With Food, Therapy, and How I Lost Weight

I'm going to start by saying, these are things that worked for ME and I'm merely sharing them to help! I am in no way a doctor or a professional or a therapist... yada yada yada.


So, it's 5:59 on a Sunday.. and I've actually been attempting to write this blog for a couple hours now. Not because I was scared, or didn't want to... well, maybe a little bit. This is just a topic that is awkward and vulnerable for me to discuss, but at the same time, really important to talk about and share with you.

Alright, let's talk about weight loss, shall we? I see more damn commercials, advertisements, supplements, blogs, magazines, tea's, YouTube videos, Instagram accounts, etc, etc, promoting weight loss. And, for 23 years of my life... (well not the entire 23, I probably didn't think about weight loss while I was pooping in my diapers), but for maybe 10 or 11 years of my life, I was consumed with wanting to lose weight. I carried this obsession with me throughout middle school, high school, and college. I would attempt new diets, only to binge eat late at night. Most of my binge eating came from boredom, procrastination, and restriction. I would procrastinate assignments by driving to Rite Aid and buying the largest bag of M&M's I could find. Then I would come home, eat until I was sick, and then start my assignment at midnight. I constantly compared myself to girls with thinner frames and wished I had the discipline to eat perfectly.

When I moved to Los Angeles this past year to pursue acting, I knew that my weight would be a hindrance on my career. Not necessarily to others, but because of how I felt about it. Every morning I would wake up and think, "today is the day I am going to be perfect!" That was usually followed by a mediocre gym session, with mediocre eating habits, then mediocre sleep patterns, and finally late night eating. I was going fucking insane.

Some time back in January I realized that nothing was ever going to change on the outside until I dealt with the inside. I reached out to a therapist who specializes in intuitive eating and nervously made my first appointment. I ended up working with Elyse Resch for over 3 months, learning about intuitive eating. I learned to eat without restriction and allow my body to tell me what it needs. To some, intuitive eating may seem obvious! When you're hungry, go eat! When you want a cookie, eat it! When you want a salad, eat it! But to someone like myself, every waking moment my brain was consumed with what I "should" and "shouldn't" eat. Nothing was easy. I made notes in my phone when I felt sick to my stomach from eating so much food late at night, to remind myself how gross and disgusting I felt -- in hopes it would prevent another late night episode. I would go to the grocery store and buy $60 worth of fruit and vegetables to juice for the week -- which only lasted for half a day and I would find myself stuffing my face with something else. I googled "Celebrity Diets" on a weekly basis because there must have been soooomething I was missing right? Like there has to be some crazy trick to lose weight. Well, let me just tell you folks, a healthy mind can change a whole freakin' lot. I can honestly say seeing her changed my relationship with food forever.

// Check out her book ! // (This is not sponsored lol)

After meeting with Elyse, I felt really ready to make some changes. I took the plunge and signed up for personal training at my gym. I have a hard time spending lump sums of money at once (probs the Jew in me) but I felt like this might be just the thing I needed.

I was paired up with my trainer Josh, (Shoutout! Love you!) and told him I was pretty much terrified and worried I'd be a big baby. We had lots of communication about what I wanted, what he expected, and everything in between. The minute we started working together, I felt so much stronger -- mentally and physically. Sounds so cheesy, but I think that was one of the biggest changes i've made in my life.

He taught me workouts I NEVER would have thought to do... (common ladies, you know we're all scared of that weight room!) I told him I basically wanted to be Nina Agdal (Victorias Secret Model and total babe), to which he laughed, and said -- "It's not impossible!" Well, yes it is Josh, but thank you for pretending. If you need that extra push and find yourself lacking a bit of motivation, personal training is life changing. We've been working together now for a little over 7 weeks and we're still goin' strong!

For those of you not looking to drop tons of mulah on personal training, keep reading // 

Around the same time, I reached out to my favorite blogger, Lauryn Evarts, who runs the cutest freakin' blog in the world, " The Skinny Confidential ". Let me just tell you i've followed this girl for over a year, via Instagram, Snapchat, Blog, YouTube (yes i'm basically a stalker). Anyway, I had some fitness and blogging questions for Lauryn, and seeing how busy she is, I figured I'd never hear back....she responded to me within 48 hours!

She told me about her Bombshell Body Guide which provided 28 weeks of workouts and nutrition plans and I was sold. I cannot tell you how easy to follow her guide is. Each week has different workouts you can do which helped me a lot when I wasn't working with a trainer. The thing I liked best about her plan was the nutrition guide. My issue with a lot of nutrition plans, is that they seem to involve eating baked chicken breast out of tupperware 5 days a week. Nope, no thanks, see yaa.

Lauryn's guide had easy-ass instructions for the non cooker like myself -- most of which involve hardly any cooking! She's all about natural ingredients, different seeds, spices, etc. Also, Lauryn's Body Guide costs about the same amount as ONE personal training session! 28 Weeks for the price of ONE DAY.... uhhh yea i'm down.

You can grab Lauryn's plan HERE !!! : )

Here's a couple snaps of what her stuff looks like //

I'm definitely not "done" with my journey, but I'm so happy at how far i've come, mentally and physically. In just 2 months i've lost 6 pounds of body fat (roughly a pound a week). Lost 3 inches on my waist, and gained half an inch on my butt ; )

Do you spy Linus?? :)

If you liked this blog, feel free to reach out! Love talking about it with you guys.

// YouTube video coming soon! //



Well hello there! Bet you forgot about me over there in the real world. Well I've been trying somethin' new over in LA LA land and I thought you might wanna check it out!

I've been obsessed with watching Vloggers, (video bloggers) on YouTube and I had that thought that every person has when they see someone doing something fun and different, and they think, I CAN DO THAT!!! Well, IDK if i'm half as interesting as all those professional video bloggers out there, but here's my first try.

// click HERE to watch! //

Enjoy me makeup free, eating a lot, and hanging out with my roomie....oh and my cute pup Linus. : )


Working with BuzzFeed!

SUUUUPER stoked to share with you guys something I worked on with Buzzfeed.com! Not only was the content super hilarious to shoot, but the cast and crew had me cracking up the entire time. Watch me live out my fantasy as a psycho : )

In 48 hours, this video had OVER a million views. Talk about eyeballllls


My Tinder Date [not] with David Duchovny

Well, hello thereee..

I thought it best to do a new video so you all won't forget what I look like or how weird I am. Today I went on a 20 minute Tinder date that still seemed a bit too long. To be fair, he was a nice guy, but boy... if looks could kill... they would've killed me with boredom and pervy eyes.

Get vulnerable with me & enjoy this quick rant about my date... let's hope he never sees this. 

Subscribe to my channel & Give a thumbs up if you laughed...even just once.. like even just a little bit... just do it.



Porsche's, Poop, and Panic Attack's!

Shalom! It's 1:08 on a muggy day out here in LaLa Land. I am a lil' jet lagged from a recent trip back to the Bay Area to see good old Susan and Robert. It's always such a weird experience when I go home you know? Like, when you've been living on your own for 5+ years and life is good and everything (sort of) makes sense to you... and then you go back home for 3 days and you don't even know how to sustain your own life anymore?

It's like i've forgotten how to eat, breathe, sleep, poop, make lunch..etc. I wake up and just question everything... who am I? How do I respond to 89 emails? Will mom wash my 20 pairs of underwear I brought home?

It was grandma Kari's 89th birthday so I calmed down on my life altering questions, and remained a good little girl the whole trip. We drove out to Yountville, which is a town close to Napa, in order to dine at the ever so fancy, "French Laundry". Let me just say that eating 9 courses over 3 hours takes a toll on you as a human. Granted, they were barbie doll sized portions, but still, I def pulled the whole, "OMG i'm never eating again". Not shockingly, I wake up starving and can't wait to find the nearest blueberry muffin. Mid bite, my dad chimes in with, "Wow, those things are pure fat...". So I politely rebut with, "FUCK YOU ROBERT".

So you know, Home was fun.

Currently at a coffee shop trying to calm down from a minor panic attack. Have you ever tried to parallel park between a Porsche and a Range Rover? You actually see your life flash before your eyes... Good thing I came to a coffee shop btw, because watching the season 10 finale of Friends in my room was waaaay less productive than watching it IN the coffee shop. FML.

Hmm... what's new that I can share with you guys? Ok - serious question.. Would you guys watch "Vlogs"? Do you guys know what vlogs are? Is anyone actually going to even respond to this question? Initially when I proposed this idea to my roommate she thought I asked if I should start "flogging" which I guess is whipping myself sexually... so.... she was all for it. It would essentially be me filming myself driving around, going to Target, buying coffee, aka....all the really important things going on in my life.

Alright, I should probably go respond to my Tinder matches and drink my iced tea. Hope you all have the best Friday in the history of Fridays!


Healthy Snacks To Keep you in Check and lookin' HOT HOT HOT.

HEY GIRL! Alright, let's get honest here for a moment. I like feeling good about myself. Shocking huh!? NOT. It's no big secret that we like to look and feel amazing, so why not help each other out with tips and tricks along the way!

Here are a couple food items i've been Loooovin' lately.  With Summer just around the corner, these snacks will NOT have you feeling deprived!

I also tend to pronounce things wrong, and find myself having mini dance parties. That's cool with you right? K great : )

Check out how cute I am in this video linked below...  


It's Friday night, just got paid!

OK, so I was at the gym today on the stair - torture device , and was getting ultra bored of my Spotify playlist. Suddenly, I remembered that I downloaded the 50 Shades of Grey audio book, and was like, OMFG what better place or time to whip out this book! Right?

Let me just say... don't waste your time. It took 3 fucking hours for the chick to even lose her virginity... and up until that point I was listening to some awkward girl do her voice AND the guy voice. In the tone of Chandler Bing, "could I BE any less turned on". I was soo expecting some raunchy, almost illegal story to liven up my forced gym cardio.. but alas, I heard a lot of dumb commentary about "oh wow, he's so cute, he makes me tremble..blah blah blah".

Although, I will say.. experiencing 50 Shades of Grey in theaters was much like watching porn as a group... dodging any eye contact when leaving the theater.. especially from the heavy breathing gentleman behind me.

It's been quite some time since i've given the blog some TLC! I took a little tangent to try out YouTube which has been awesome. I have a questionable following of at least 2 people.. #winning. More videos are on the way once my life calms down for a minute. Not like I'm in high demand, I just  have somehow sped through these past 2 weeks and haven't even had a minute to shave my legs! YOU KNOW.

Hmm.. what else what else! I attempted to give up sugar. That went great! Lasted 48 hours then succumbed to Troli Eggs. I have also been fighting a cold and have gone through a record breaking amount of kleenex's (sp?). Seriously, ask me how many? Not like i've counted though, cause that would be weird... 386.

No i'm totally kidding.. I wouldn't count....

What kind of YouTube video should I put up next!???? Comment & LMK. Happy Friday... get weird!


February HAUL! + New Hair & Itchy Nose

Happy singles awareness month guuuuys! I picked up a couple things that i'm luuuhh-vin and thought i'd share with you! Not included in this vid are the 3 bags of candy I bought.. shout out to my sweet tooth'd friends : )

I think this is my favorite video to watch so far... probably because of my kick-ass new hair! Thank you so so so much ..        >> Tanya Ramirez << @ Salon Republic in West Hollywood

PS, how fuckin cute is my room? I know right!


Fishtail Braids in under 5 minutes!

Happy Thursday!!

Made a quick little video before I head to the Sam Smith concert tonight with some of my best gal's... If you've ever wanted to learn how to do a Fishtail Braid in under FIVE minutes, here's your chance!

Necklace | Flea Market purchase
Top | Olivaceous


Happy Sunday! NEW VIDEO!

Get to know a little bit about me with this "Tag" video! It's not actually 17 questions, I edited the boring ones out. : )

In today's episode, I talk about my favorite carbs, text messages from my Mom, & more... 

exciting stuff guyyys..


My first YOUTUBE video!!! January 2015 Favorites.


I'm feeling a bit weird about this but i'm also feeling really excited to share with you another social media platform! I am finally putting my camera to good use and just trying something new. Let me know in the YouTube comments what you think... if you can even make it through the ten minutes...whoops. I promise they will not be that long again...unless I go on another rant. Hope you like!!


Here's a screen grab from my video...
waving to all my haters. ; )

hahah not. 


Models, Creepers, and Grilled Cheese

Hey guys, Happy Sunday.

I've been listening to my neighbors have sex for approx. 15 minutes now.. not exactly what I meant for wanting more of it in my life... but thanks for trying God. I am enjoying the Kelly Clarkson track playing in the background.

It's been over 2 weeks since I posted a blog.. i'm sorry i'm sorry I know you've been lost without me. Theres been so much random stuff going on! I can't wait to share. So, if we're friends on Facebook, you may have already seen the BREAKING NEWS that I couldn't wait to share.. literally I texted about 3 people while it was happening and then took to social media to update the world. Ugh, ok, the more I hype this up, the more I realize I sound like such a loser....

Ok, so basically, it was just another Thursday evening in West Hollywood. I had just hiked Runyon canyon with my roomie and was dying for some Beverly Hills Juice (Carrot coconut with cacao to be exact). I picked up my $30 drink, jk it was $9 but take my arm and my leg why don't you. I realize that I am not a model, and cannot eat as the models do, so I must go stock up on sustenance. I drive up Crescent Heights listening to some kewl new jamz, sippin my drink, livin la vida loca, right? Anyway, I head on over to Trader Joes and I'm totally minding my own beeswax. I'm checking out the avocados, checking out the men that are entering from the gym above, checking out if I smell, etc... when all of a sudden I spot the totally stunning and makeup-less Behati Prinsloo. (Victoria's Secret model and wife of Adam Levine).  I have inserted a photo for ya, so if we could all just have a moment of silence for her beauty, k thanks.

I watched her ask the clerk about Rose' , I watched her go in for that extra bag of tortilla chips, and I watched her spend $266 dollars on booz and food. Yo go Glen Coco. Yeah, ok this is when I start to sound a bit creepy. I swear I didn't stand there drooling or anything....sort of.

I'm currently lying in bed trying to gain some energy before heading off to work tonight. I can only put up with so many white girls yelling, "CAN YOU GUYS PUT ON TURN DOWN FOR WHAT??!" My bar is located right next to the DJ booth so you can imagine. Today I went to the local flea market which I'm obsesssssed with. I have gone 2 Sundays now and it has yet to disappoint. Although, right as I arrived to the market, I was totally in my element, shopping and perusing, when some young guy walks up to me and stands in that awkward "too close to be considered okay for a stranger to stand this close" space and sort of started looking into my soul! You know when people do that?? Like you almost feel exposed and they can see your deepest darkest secret or how many jellybeans you ate last night!? He tells me that he has been watching me, and although he doesn't really like Lindsay Lohan, I reminded him of her, even though she has problems now... He proceeds to hover and asks if I have any tips for how to approach girls. IDK dude, maybe respect a little personal space and have less of an, "i'm going to kill you" stare.

I don't mean to sound like a bad human, I was truly flattered.. but some people man. This world is quite eccentric but it always makes for a good story. Anyway, time to go finish season 7 of Friends. This whole, "putting Friends on Netflix in January" thing is really appearing to be counterproductive for all of my New Years Resolutions...except for 1 which was to watch Friends... Amiright guys?? I will end this on a mini win for me... I did NOT eat a grilled cheese after work last night at 3 am.